GRRRRRRRRRR

oh people stress me out. well only certain people and only sometimes. i really don't know what to do to get through to this person. I have talked to him, forget talked i have practically begged and it didn't fricken do any good! what else can i do? I really don't know how to get my point across ! And i really am at my wits end! Any ideas?? because i am fresh out of ideas and i have no clue where to go from here. i mean seriously what else can i do?????

Todd

For the last 4 and a half months (wow- well wow for me anyways lol) i have been dating Todd Robinson. haha most of you know him and when i thought about what to Blog about he came to mind (huh what a surprise right lol) He is in grade 12 (yes he will grad!! ) and Is 18 years old. he is a really great guy. It took me awhile to realise that(2 years to be exact lol) but i figured it out eventually lol. when i first met him my first impression well...i thought he was an ass to put it frankly lol but as i got to know him i saw how great he was and well now things are going great. He lives with his parents (scott and jill) and has 3 brothers (Tyler, Eric and Greg.) He works out at the mill on weekends. I can't think of much else to say but lol if you get past the smart-ass comments and get to know him he is a great guy really.

Falling

There is a saying that once you hit rock bottom , you can only go up. I am not entirely sure i believe that. what if you break through the rock and keep falling..... i don't think it is the rock that stops you from falling...i think it is the support system you have that holds you up. my support system is my friends, family and boyfriend. Without them i would break through the rock and just continue to fall. life is not easy but with the right support system you can handle anything. well at least thats my theory. Somtimes they might let go and let you fall for your own good. but all in all they are what catches you when you stumble, and what picks you up and dusts you off when you fall. My mom and Dad catch me , my friends catch me and Todd catches me. without my support system I would just give up. who is your support system??? who catches you?

living out of town sucks!!!!

I HATE living out of town! it bites! I can't just walk over to a friends or walk out and rent a movie and if i am here alone...i stay here. i have no way to leave unless someone is home or someone comes to pick me up! it really bites! it is an inconvience doing anything because i have to get a ride and all that. it will be so much better as soon as i can drive. once i can drive at least i will have a little freedom! then i can at least go and do something! oh well tho there is not much i can do about it right now so , i might as well not even worry about it. i guess lol. there lol i got my rant out! lol